i have zombie moments;
i sit for hours, staring at the lights imperfectly hung: too paralyzed to even sip from the strong, now cold, cup of coffee laying in my clammy hands.
i stare unfocused at the screen of my phone—- waiting for his inevitable call, but jumping at every other text or notification that would light up the phone.
__time goes by, I have begun to move at half pace, steady, trying to keep moving at all